I'm deleting this account, I am going to have a new name now... one without a history of posts... the name that I have now is newwakens

so add me as a friend again if you'd like, and I will be adding you all again of course!

ok byebye

 Living with my baby all summer has been the best thing evers in my life.  I honestly don't even understand how our love keeps growing, but it does and I get happier and happier every day with him... can NOT WAIT till we get married... *le sigh*.. one more year!!

speaking of, I have been designing my own invitations and really just anything else I possibly can for my wedding, I LOVE designings things, I just don't know how much my rents will approve, they think that DIY (even when I know what is crappy crafty and whats actually designed well) is dumb... makes me sads.... me wants my own work dang it!

which brings me to the next thing, i hearts my life to the max right now, but I apparently have to go home like every single weekend ever to fulfill "family obligatioins" like no joke, the next 4 to 5 weekends in a freaking row!! I only get the fourth off. boooooo, my home life is sooo opposite from here with Jason, it's not calm, it's not loving- it's condescending and cruel.. one word- DAD. grrrr. ruins my happy thoughts just typing it.... but moving on...

misses ppl, I think Jason and I are gonna try and make it to coventry to Bri and Glenna's City and East thingy, that would be awesomeness to me!! see everybody sooooooooooon!!

 I miss my little Jason soooooo much, sometimes I really wish I could just live with hims and not have this feeling of withdrawl, but I guess this is how life is for now.  God, why did I transfer schools and loose two years??? I miss my jas-face to the max right now....   :( :( :(

 Happy Fat Tues. to everyone!! Hope you all are eating well today, bc tomorrow is the day of fasting.. YAY! For lent I am going to try to not lie at alll, which actually shouldn't be that hard considering I've been working on it for a while.  My parents have been exposed to sooo many things because I told them the truth about a lot, it made me feel guilty to let them down about certain things but it was necessary to keep my relationship with them going.  I do like honesty, I just always feel the need to lie so that I can please everyone around me, its an awful habit, but that is def my personality... always caring about what other think and never caring about my own good.... I can be pretty retaded about that.  


The internship search is starting to get bad, i've got a list that is almost 40-50 firms long, well maybe longer than that, of firms that arent even taking an intern, let alone lookng at resumes.  The arch firms in Clev are way poor and def can't afford interns.... I am gonna be pissed when I have to end up working for free bc I can just see that coming, as for New York, a lot of them have told me that I am looking too early for a summe position and they won't know for a few months... which makes me freaking nervous.  I want to know now!!! I sorta wanted a paid one bc in my major I HAVE to pay for 4 credit hrs at kent for my summer internship, and it count toward my graduation... so I NEED it!! grrr.


btw... 2 ppl were murdered execution style right by where Jason lives, the night that Jason and I went out and got super drunk at a scavenger hunt all around the clev bars for one of his co-workers' bday..... that coulda easily been our drunk asses walking in downtown Clev.... its freaking scary.  I hate when I feel unsafe. 

 so, v-day sucked. I was sooo incredibly sick that Jason had to take care of me all weekend.  I felt really bad that he did like everything ever.  Also, I've missed almost every single class, except Revit class, since last friday, so now I feel guilt for missing, but I was so sick and so dizzy that I couldnt even shower without laying down,  I made up all my work too, so I dont know why I keep feeling so guilty... it's so annoying. I need to get better, I want to do so many things and I can't it's super pissing me off!! stupid sickness! grr.

PS my dad keeps trying to guilt me into going home for a weekend, I don't want to, at all, but I gave in... ugh. christ.

 Now is when I wish that I had a kid who was about in Kindergarden so that I can have an excuse to go and see Coraline.  I mean there really is no real reason for a 23 year old to be there with out a younger companion.  oh well.  also, I've fallen in love with "naughty Monkey shoes".... I basically want every single pair ever!!  Those would be perf. for a splash of color when I'm a professional businesswoman ;)  
(my computer's being a jerk, so you can find more and way diff. ones at http://www.like.com/womensshoes/'naughty_monkey_shoes'?SID=GOO&CID=GESHO28d90d3e4e9ff74e

I can't decide where i want to do my internship.... so far this is what I am thinking...

New York City (Skidmore Owings S meril LLP)
Memphis (Looney Ricks Kiss Architecture Inc)
Chicago (not sure where)
Kansas City (with my classmate Laura... I really want in HOK holy shit that would be my freaking dream... I would love to design stadiums)
or lamo Cleveland (Vocon, or KA architecture Inc.)

I know that the best jobs to go for are obviously New York/Chicago, but I feel like living with family in those places would be a little too intrusive since space is such an issue in those cases, I mean they did say I could I would just feel bad.... but its a really good opportunity.. hmmm damn

I'm also not sure if I want to minor in Marketing or fine Arts, I have time for both but I'm just not sure what would benefit me the most in this situation, like I dunno for sure even what direction that I want to go in when I graduate... I guess I have to decide like now!!  If my goal is more managerial then I should do marketing, but I never saw myself there, but then I feel like I'd be really limiting myself if I don't want the managerial opportunities when they arrive.... Shit, all I can think about is my soon to be career, I am so freaking excitedface....

On a different note, my stomach has been really really weird like this whole school year, like even a little before school started it started to hurt funny... I am going to the docotr finally this friday and I am really afraid what they might find bc I am pretty sure that I know what's wrong and thats NOT good... and I havent been telling my parents about this whole thing and if its something serious they are gonna be pissed that I never said anything...i've really been trying to aviod my family lately to keep sane and get my life back in order.. its been working really great, I have to say... except for this whole stomach thing that is...

yeah so I do wnat to apologize for never hanging out, but I seriously am soooo into my major right now that I want to do sooooo good in all of my projects and bust out a shit-awesome porfolio for interviewing this winter, that then only free time I have is every other weekend and I spend it with my main man Jason... omgs 4 years this month!!!! 4 freaking years

no seriously boo on today!!!

this is why today deserves a fucking slap in the face:

1.  This morning I tried to leave Jason's parking garage (oh, after he left for work of course) and the fucking parking garage's credit card acceptor was OUT OF FUCKING ORDER!! oh annnnnd I didn't have any cash on me at all.  So I was like um wtf do I do in this retarded situation.   Mind you I depleted my ATM account so that I wouldn't spend sooo much money.  So, I called Jason and he was like practically at work already, so I was like FUCK.   I'm going to be stuck in like fucking Garage LIMBO until 5 when he gets off .... Oh and this is at 730 am!  So I made the decision to just fucking over draft on my ATM account  yay for that.

2.  So, then I had to cancel my appointments that I had this morning so I could go to the bank and talk my way out of overdraft fees and hopefully get either some old lady who feels bad for me or some middle aged man that felt bad for me.... well at least that was a winner and everything was taken care of with no fees attached, BUT THENNN I go home and can't find my credit card fucking ANYWHERE.  SO, I hurried up and cancelled that shit.... so now I have like no means of moneys... fucking  A

3.  So I go home to take a shower and the fucking water doesn't go down the drain at all, it just decided to have a little bath party without letting me know..... BUT I totally got that fixed last week, so I called maintenace and they looked  in there and were all like whoops we forgot to do this and that and all that fun stuff as they are shuffling through my soapy shower water... a little embarrassing to say the least. RAR.

okay well now that I wrote it all out it doesn't seem that bad, but I was PISSED this morning FUCK parking and their greedy little 12 dollar parking spaces.. its not like they fucking wash my car and spray paint the lines with gold for Christ's sake wtf is it that much money for anyway.  Its a parking spot, a place I pay to put my car momentarily while doing other things that fucking cost money... why can't it be like the Jetson's and i can get my car all packed up into a nice little brief case until I need it again!!

so financial aid is lame and I've been on hold with them for freaking an hour!  Grr... School is soo close, its scary.  I have 19 credit hours this semester so I'm sure I'm def going to be having some serious funs... boo.. oh and did I mention that I'm taking a Saturday class too!? Yay for me. oh well, I might as well get as much out of my education as possible considering I'm paying for it.  ANNND..I really wanted to get a diff. job this semester but people are totally whoring the jobs out there this year I swear, so I guess that I will just stick with what I have.

This weekend was lovely.  I went to Clev.  we saw Citizen Kane... really sweet cinamatography. Then we went to Market Square which had some random art festival going on, it was cool.  Jason boughted some fresh fruits and veggies there (which we made super yummy quesadillas with later ons) then we went to The Lakeside Park which was super cute. 

Then we went on the Goodtime III.  Which was the "booze cruise" for Jason's work... it was fun.  I mean my hair did get totally ruined and it was pretty cold when the sun went down but other than that it was fun, I mean how can you complain with an open bar... any drink!   Oh and weirds... they served Corona in a can... I've never seen that before.  Then Jason randomly got "burning river" (Great lakes beer) when we were on the Cuyahoga river.  It was humorous.  Jason's co-workers were really nice and super cools.  I even got to meet his boss!  It was like a 2hr dinner then it stopped and had random party ppl get on then it left again for 2hr of dancing... pretty shantsy!

After that was bars... primarily The map room bc they found that there are 2 dollar beers there. I had a good time, then i walked down the streets of downtowm barefoot and drunky (the heels had to go!) I love it there, its such a different atmosphere, and the buildings are so beautifuls. 

I think it would be soooo amazing if he got the Chicago rotation.... I would be super in Love with that city!  but I would totally hate being that far away from Jason.  He's such a nice little boyfriend, I loves him muches!!

So last weekend was sooooooooooo freaking amazing and by that I mean Friday night only.    It was my firstest weekend with Jason in Cleveland,  I had so much fun, like def the most fun ive had in forevers.  First he bought tickets to ingenuity fest which was way sweet it was dedicated to all arts/technology.   So lots of  bands and lots of techo-gadets and paintings. then we were getting sort of bored so we were like wel lets walkaround one more time and we came upon this band called Peachcake from arizona or what they called "planet awesome"..........................UM AMAZING  they were a techno rock band with the fucking weirdest props evers!!! like i dunno how to even explain how fucking left field this shit was, they threw confetti and called it magic, the lead singer was in a racecar driver suit with a panda mask and they had a kidjust come out in the crowd and dance with random shit, like a Jon bON JOvi mask and a stuffed flaming torch... it was sweet.   Jason got their CD you should ask him about it.
then we heard bbig booms and ran to see the Indians' fireworks .... for free!!! they were nice

Then we went to the bars which were
1. WAY CLASSY
2. way expensive
3. way bro-ish
but it was fun as hell.  The poor boy spent soooo much money on our drinks though i felt awful.  Like it felt like new york all over again fucking 4.50 for a beer on W 6th in Cleveland WTF??!!

We got to go up on a sweet patio deck at one place, we saw  an 80s tribute band at another, a fat dude grinding on a fat chick in another, then the last bar we ran onto one of Jasons work buddys.  Its weird that hes like super grown up now...  all workish-face... hes so cute and professional.

I can't wait to go there this weekend, he lives by the theater (next to) district and we are going to watch Citizen Kane on the Big screen friday AWESOME and then he's taking  me on a boat cruise thing sat night for his work.. all boozeis FREE, they spoil the shit out of him and his co-workers but i bet it will be  really funs!

when i bought a thong for the first time with my best friend in high school

"The LiveJournal Survey"

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Karen
- Karenface
- Karkee

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I'm creative
- I'm pretty smarts
- I really clean

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I can be compulsive
- I obsess about hating myslef
- I care too much about things I can't control

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
- Polish
- Russian
- Am. Indian

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- energy drinks (no carb Monsters are Delic)
- The internet
- chaperstick

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
- Beck
- The Flaming Lips
- Death Cab for Cutie

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
- I went to a catholic school
- I'm actually superwoman undercover
- i had my belly button pierced

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- stop cussing so much
- make lots of MONEY
- finding true happiness in myself

THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP:
- companionship/ a best friend
- true love
- longevity

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- drawing
- being around people (as long as they aren't annoying)
- organizing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- Go on vacation
- be graduated
-move to a new and exciting city/ be in a settled family with Jason

THREE JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING OTHER THAN THE ONE YOU HAVE:
- commercial advertising
- fashion designer
- a chef

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- California
- Greece/Italy
- Dubai

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- design the Interior of a Major/notable building
- travel the world like a vagabond
- get my life in freaking order!

THREE PEOPLE WHO SHOULD COMPLETE THIS SURVEY:
- Lindsayface
- Sereneface

- YOU!

last nights was fun, I actually gotted to see little Serene and actually got to hang out with Katie.. It was good to see their faces again.. it should be done again, soon, and with more people...

Ahh New York City... what can I say, or what can't I say really.. We did EVERYTHING... it was amazing... here is a list of bestestes:

1.  Going to Conan O'Brien Show ans sitting in the third row!

2. Going to Grand Central station and having my aunt take us in the mechanical area and try to walk through the huge glass window, got to see really cool parts of the station that you normally never see

3.  Touring the ENTIRE New York Times building and seeing awesome things like their Pulitzer Prize wall, and the AMAZING architecture in the new building (my uncle took us up there because he is the sports editor for the New York Times)

4.  Going to a Comedy show and sitting in the front row, therefore getting made fun of. like Jason apparently works at Gay footlocker, and we don't know how to have sex since we are young??!, oh and Jason threw apparent gang signs at one of the comedians...LOL

5.  Playing at FAO Schwartz  (on the HUGE piano from the movie BIG) and Toys R us (theres a ferris wheel there, a life size barbie house, and a Jurassic park T-rex)

6.  Having little Chinese ladies yelling at me purse! purse! you want purse! in Chinatown, and some guy just walks past Jason and makind a fart noise with his mouth at him...yes this was a grown man...WTF

7.  Going to The restaurant from Seinfeld and eating in there, seeing Columbia University, seeing Univision offices (my aunts the VP of univision marketing), seeing ground Zero, the financial district, the statue of Liberty, 5th avenue, park Avenue, Times square, the Yankees Stadium, union square, Bryant park, littlle Italy, i dunno, more things but I can't remember...lol

8.  Seeing a movie being filmed near Union Square, it ended up being some movie about the Notorious B.I.G.

9. Going to a bar one night and only going to that bar that night and having the bar tender say that he graduated from KSU, he gave us free drinks! oh and Jason playing Frank SInatra New York New York on the Jukebox there....haha

10.  ALL THE AMAZING ARCHITECTURE and Interior Designings!!
        

 
this was befores
and this is nows... bang bangs hmmm

comment and i'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. afterwards, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

I was given M by 

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1. Markers!!!!!!!!!!               because this had in fact become what my major is, looking at different colored markers, buying them, and making pretty drawlings..yum yum

2. M. Night Shyamalan                basically anyone with this kind of glittery name is going to be amazing at life, all his movies are pretty coolies, except for lady in water....I was actually not impressed there, but I'll look past that because of all the really sweet other things that he has done.

3. Mullets             sporting mullets should sooo come back into style (IMO)

4. Matata of Hakuna    (Hakuna Matata) what a wonderful phrase, ain't no passing craze, it means no worries for the rest of my days, it's my problem free philosophy!

5. Mommy    She is the bestest evers, and she loves little kid things and it makes me happy because then I get to participate in little kid things, like going to Disney movie premiers!

6.  Mod     I LOVE the Mod style and sixties retro, if that came back I would so DIE, I want my whole house to be mod... please!

7.  Memories     they are worth everything in the whole wide world

8. My Mister     obviously Jason is on my list of things that I love, actually he should have been first!

9. Mummification     because those mesotopians were so bad ass and built things like magic, while finding a way to preserve something so delicate, like a freaking human, so nicely... they must have had minds larger that Zeus back then

10. Mystery        I love mystery in my life, or else it could get way to stale and dull, happy mysteries are the best, like un-opened packages just for me, or a surprise from Jason.. or getting random cupcakes from my bestest friends when I move out of the dorms and back home last summer YAY    

I woke up this morning sicker than crap... I have TONS of hw to do and no time, I cant wait to go home, i rather like it there a little bits..



sillyface

last weekend = Best of my life... me and Jasons 3 year anny!!! he is the bestest EVER time a thousand millions and you all know it!

this week, registered for class...def LOVE the new registration- WAY COOLER... anddd


IM GOING TO ITALY NEXT YEAR... SWEET

gonna be way too cool to handle.. I love kent, i love my life, and I love my boyfriend

today.. went t Cleveland checked out the sweetest arcade in northwest ohio (check ambers facebook books) wants to be in an ARCHITECTURE FIRM NOWSSSS i cant wait to graduate and get in there!!!

HAHA,   work pays off.... my prof asked to display my project in Architecture class... hmm thats the second prof to asked me that in like two weeks... I am amazings at creatings! Okay, no more gloat-face. I want to be America's Next Top Model. YAY for seaason premiers this week... I feel fat, I think I'm going to stop eating so much, yeah.

P.S. Me's still loves lifey!!!!!!!  HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

I love life right now and absolutely EVERYTHING about it! The only thing is, I am soooo busy, no joke, but Ive come to the conclusion that if I just take two days out of the week and not sleep at all and do my work all night, while still doing work and shit while I'm awake every other day, I might get some free time on the weekends.  I have never been so busy in my life, and Im totally cool with it.  K, off to class.  I am so freaking happyface right now!!  Missing peoples that I used to see all the time last years though.


I LOVE JASON MILLIONS